Normally I don’t like to play games, I was in Vegas and all the people inside the casino’ was looking at me because I wasn’t not playing.
But now, I must play this game.  As someone told me, I’m not playing with money but with sentiments, If I win I will  be not able to buy an house maybe.. but I will be rich of other things.

This is a major change.. We bought a car. I will move in another house. We will live together. We will have bills to pay, savings to do.

As a game of black jack, we need luck, Technic,  a good drink, maybe something to smoke and a good place where we can rest and to think between a round and another one. And to play with other people is always good.. I hope Y&L,  M&G and other will be at my side, in some way. I don’t want to loose my spaces.. I want to have new spaces. Maybe different spaces, but still… are spaces.

Let’s start the game. But As Toto’ told me “if you loose 200$, back at home. Stopping to play will be a good prize ” In this way you will have the opportunity to come back to play, If you wish.

The cards are on the table. Who want to play?

Was so good to drink with Hannibal, my cousins, to see again the most incredible creature called Fly and to talk and drink coffee with Ambra in our “special place”.
But I’m so happy as well to come back to “my” life in Dublin. My habits, My place, My place… and all the people I have close to me.

Will be so good to see you all guys. I miss my job.
Maybe some people doesn’t miss me… or worst, they don’t care about me anymore. At all. but who fucking care??? I’m learning to do the same, with the people who deserve this type of treatment.
Lot of new things are waiting for me in Ireland.. and, I promised already to don’t allow any persons to ruin my days, from now on.

Ireland, I’m coming back.

I don’t like to say goodbye. Because one thing I learnt from life is that, you don’t know what can happen tomorrow. Like I’m use to say, life sucks, and sometimes this is one of the main reasons.

Today, for me was like to close a circle. This time was not a pizza in Temple Bar but a good steak and a good fish, not red wine but the more Irish beers.
I learnt so much from you, and I will never thank you enough. You will be special, forever.I told you already face to face what I think and what I feel…. so seems a paradox here in a blog, but the best words are the unwritten ones.

I wish you all the best, loads of happyness and… all the things you desire. Ti voglio bene.

This Post should be the last one in this blog and the first one inAnother one I opened already.

I will write here sometimes, but things are changing… why to don’t change place for a blog as well?

Loads of people leaved the desk in the past days, souple of them very important for me for different reasons. The life in my workplace start to be more difficult than the past because the business is not so healty like in the past and the rapport with a couple of persons, not for my fault, is changed radically (see previous post). So is difficult to laught, have fun and work with the peace of mind I had before. Is difficult even to try to have fun.

I discovered one of my bad point: attitute to changes 0. Zero. Null. ” “.

I want just stay in peace with the people, to solve problems and have fun. But this, true until few weeks ago, seems not possible anymore.

Nobody is able to say thank you, to praise a bit the persons around.
To keep the relations in a good status. What type of shitty umanity I have around me?? Again, I should forget my way to be and became like all the others. Seems so easy in that way.
It’s all your fault, A.

But maybe, as usual, these are useless consideration about something might happening just in my mind.
Just useless opinions of a nerd in the clouds of Internet.

My way to be is  so fucking strange?  Why the people can’t just accept my act, my way to take care about the peoples?

Ok, i must realize that, to be polite, nice, caring about people, is not a good attitude in this world.

And worst, all this things, everytime, are messing up all.  I should stop to think. Good suggestion.
I want to forget my way to be.

Amazing aftenoon, tasty pizza and good wine in Temple Bar, long and interesting walk in Dublin City Center and after, O’connell bridge….. forever a special place for me.

I know, i don’t have to think anymore about what’s happened.. but anyway i learned a lot, was a good  and important experiece for me.

I will never thank you enough… you unlocked me. A part of my hearth will be for you, forever.

Thanks again, K.

Good things of this year:

• New Job, great job
• Very good peoples
• A new friend, i think..
• learned loads of new things. Geek things and more than something about the life.
• got a good, confortable huge double room in a Calm place called Leixlip.
• a new nephew (Antonio, welcome in this Horrible, fucking world baby. enjoy your moment)
• drunk more beer than the last year, so been drunk more time than the last year
• Saw Oslo and Galway
• Got a new position on my desk,new opportunity to grow up

Bad stuff of this year:

• I still can’t beat my fear, often
• again, too much tears
• Not satisfied at all about my life. I don’t have any right to complain, overall i’m very lucky.. but still.

A new love was bloomed in August, but i was too stupid, or too much confused. Someone told me was the right desicion to take.. but still to difficult for me to follow the “no regrets” way to think about.

After the balance, should be good to have some target for the new year.. some of them are:

• To take all the possible knowledge from my job and try to enjoy it very well.

• Keep in touch with some people, but this point is subordinated at the point below

• choose the right people

• be more relaxed about my job

I hope some people enjoyed to stay with me, in this very short, for me, year.

To all my readers.. be your new years full of all the best things.

But, as usual, I’m scared about that. I’m worried because important peoples are leaving this place today and nobody seems care about that. I’m not a manager, but if a good person, with a lot of knowledge want to leve, I will ask why and, of course, I wiil do my best to keep him/her in the position.

But this is just an idea and someone maybe think the people are changeble, everytime in every case. This is true, but the knowledge is another stuff.

I think my desk will be a real hell in the next 3 months.  Not too much knowledge for us. Good knowledge, but not excellent. But anyway, we will grow up together.

So… what I can say? Just really thanks to the peoples helped me to grow up and to solve issue, to understand and to.. be pacient. I will miss you guys. Have a nice life :)

:D

The day is starting good :-)